The dark corner

I have always been of the ones that thinks that social psychology is something useful not only to individuals, but to humankind. If on the way to new discoveries you need some people to confront some of their deepest character traits, then so be it.
Today i found myself confronted with some thoughts that are too much for me to handle.
Im in a dark corner of my mind, watery eyes, frustration building up inside and ugly thought coming to live.
i want to ignore them, think that I am not that kind of person, that i can control it, but i am affraid that some day i wont be able to, that some day i will have an outburst that will blow everything away from me.
I am affraid, deadly affraid.
I want to cry, I cant.
I want to have her by my side, I need her, I need to tell her how much she means to me and how some decisions make me turn bad.
The worst thing is that i have seen that dark side of me before, yet i have ignored it or attributed it to external forces.
But the problem is inside me, and I will have to deal with it sooner or later...

Poise(on)

Why do you poison me?
You say you love me, you say you want to see me fly
yet every day you rip some of my feathers off
and off i go into solitude and confinement
for the resentment i feel is way beyond words
that may describe any emotion
Devotion is what you think i should feel
yet nothing nearly as good forms in
my wretched mind wandering
with the wind i go
and with the wind that brought me
ill leave
not alone
not affraid
not broken

Only one

Only one can understand what it means to live, to struggle with those little problems that look like mountains when we have to face them and, when looking back, are nothing more than molehills.
Only one can understand what those little things mean to us, what they entize, how valuable they are.
And you sit in front of me, Queen of my dreams, giving me everything and nothing at the same time, caring yet neglecting me, boosting yet loathing me, kissing yet killing me.
Only we can understand what this means, what the one means, what we feel.
I remember your warmth every morning, I picture your smile and the sun rises up in the sky, I imagine your pain and darkness clouds my domain.
One so powerful, with such grace, giving away pleasure and pain.
To you I deem these lines, my only one.

She looks up from the torn piece of paper.
"Who is the recipient of this letter?"
*Nobody right now, but perhaps in the future there will be somebody to whom I will send it*
"But how can you speak about somebody you do yet not know?"
*Because I know myself and I know what my feelings will be, who she is matters not, who I am does*
"..."
*I wrote that on a gloomy day, dont mind it too much*
I hold my hand towards her and she places the torn piece of paper in it.
*Time to move, is it not?*
"Damn right it is, you lazy-ass"
*Good morning to you too, Daemon*
"Less chit-chat and more moving, I wanna see the sunlight"
I sigh deeply as I rearrange the contents of the folder for the last time.
*Done... I think*
"Lets do it then"
*Yeah, lets head out*

To a white paper

Dont stare at me like that, its not like I want to see you like this.
My most inner desire is to clothe you, to give you meaning, to give you something to be remembered for, but I am not sure I will be able to do that today.
Today is not a rainy day, so I can not clothe you with water drops.
Today is not a sunny day, so I can not clothe you with sunshine.
Today is not a cloudy day, so I can not clothe you with soft clouds.
Today is not a foggy day, so I can not make a translucent veil that may cover just some parts of your beauty.
Today is not a snowy day, so I can not make you a white winter cape.
Today is just a dark day and I cant see your beauty at all.
I will make you a dress made of dew, for my tears are starting to flow and I would dislike to see them spilled in vain.
Please give me one more day, just one more, to make you shine through, let everybody see you and admire your beauty, your grace, your wisdom.
Today I can only offer my words, tomorrow I will offer the world.

夏 の 花火

All of her body relaxes

she lets go of the bedsheets, she closes her eyes and her head tilts to the side, and the pressure slowly fades away.

"Oh my god..." she manages to say

"And we are not even done yet"

"What?!" her body tenses again and her eyes glare at me

"I am not done yet"

"Do it by yourself then, I can not go on"

"But you will, it would be unfair otherwise. Besides, remember that thing you wanted me to do last time and we couldnt?"

Sparkles start building up in her eyes

"Today is the day"

She recovers her strenght surprisingly fast and get up from her position

I lay on my back and watch as she climbs on me, shivering with anticipation.

One leg on each side of me, she slowly lowers herself.

"Do it slowly" I whisper as I place my hands on her hips.

I love these hips, these legs, I just love every part of her body, every inch of her skin. And I also lust after each of the aforementioned . So my mind goes blank as I see her velvet sinking unto my pulsating erection.

As her lower lips touch the tip of me, a little bit of her love juice leaks out and rolls down my shaft.

I lift my hips a bit so that I poke her.

"Ah... what are you doing? Arent I the one who is supposedr to be in charge?" she scolds me

"I am just not too obedient I guess" I tell her and stick out my tongue

I poke her once again. This time she reacts by holding my arms down and lowering herself a little bit more.

My tip starts entering her wet treasure.

The pressure increases as she get me inside of her.

I reach her deepest spot, and she lets out a moan as she tries to rise herself a little, but it is futile, pleasure has overcome her.

She lets herself down completely, she pressure increases one more time, and she starts slowly grinding back and forth.

She rises her gaze to the ceiling and increases the rythm.

"So, do you like it?"

"I love it" she replies

"What is it that you love?"

"I love your cock"

"And where do you love it?"

"Inside of me, grinding me hard" as soon as she finishes the sentence, sha starts to moan, louder and louder.

The rythm increases, the pressure does too.

I put my hands on her hips one more time and help her grind with more strenght than before.

I start panting heavily as the pleasure builds up inside of me

"Im close" I tell her

"Just... ah ... just a bit... hmmm . moooore"

Her face adapts an aggresive expression as she rides me even with more force than before, I let go of her as I am unable to keep up. her thighs rubbing agains my legs, her powerful grinding against me, the sweat on her body, glistening, mesmerizing me. All i see is the sheer beauty of a moment in time, a momento we are gonna keep forever burnt in our minds, as this time is very special for us.

I reach out with my hands to hold hers, she entwines her fingers with mine.

We look each other in the eyes as I feel Im about to explode in pleasure and her moans go on.

And then the magic happens:

I thrust while she grinds, she orgasms as she lets out one last moan, my pleasure, built up all this time, erupts and I fill her insides with my seed.

The magic of the moment lingers in the air as we are drawn back to reality.

All strenght leaves her body and she falls on me, I hug her tightly and kiss her gently.

We stay like this for a while, our mixed juices pouring out of her and onto me and the bed.

She lifts her head a bit to be face to face.

"You did it" she says with a tired smile on her face "You actually did it"

"Does look like it, doesnt it?"

"I love you"

"I love you too"

A passionate kiss signs the end of this soiree.

"Shower?" I ask some minutes later.

"We do need it, dont we?"

"Yeah... and I cant wait to wash that hot body of yours"

"Quiet unless you want to shower alone"

I smile at her and playfully spank her butt

"Last warning"

"Ok ok, I get it"

I close the door behind me and we both enter the shower.

Spring firework

I thrust with all the strenght I can gather.
Her eyes open wide as her mouth drops open and a loud moan escapes from her.
"All in" I tell her.
She softly bites her lip.
We stay like this for a while, enjoying each other in this particular position.
"Gonna move, ok?" I ask.
She nods and gets her arms behind her head, getting ready for what she knoew is going to happen.
I get myself out a little and the start soflty grinding in and out of her.
Each time i get in i feel the warmth of her inner walls.
"You are soaking wet, how do you justify it?"
"You turn me on too much" she admitts in between soft moans that she lets out each time I reach her deepest spot.
"Oh, I do?"
"Uhu"
I get my erection out of her, jump out of the bed and position myself at where the footboard ought to be.
She looks up, dissapointment in her face, but that soon changes as I grab her ankles and pull her closer to me.
"I want you to feel me like you have never before"
She gives me a wry smile and cooperates, getting her spot close to my erection.
She then lays down, licks her lips and gives me a devilish look, asking me to love her rough.
I pull her legs closer to me and put them up.
I hug them against me and put my dick at the entrance of her velvet.
And the show starts again, but this time more vigorously.
I pound her again and again, using her legs to thrust with more force.
Each time my abdominal muscles hit her legs, she moans loudly.
I increase the rythm.
"Do you like it?"
"I love it. Do it harder, do it faster, please"
"What was that, I couldnt hear you" I tell her while i increase the speed
"Fa a a a aster, pleeeeeaseeeeee"
"As you wish"
At this point i have to really use all of my body to keep up with her demands, but it is worth it.
She is dripping wet and it feels as if I am going to melt inside her, the pressure she transfers on every inch of my shaft is deliciously painful.
"Im... coming" she whispers
"Oh, you are?"
"Yes.. Im coming... Im coming... Im...."
I give a deeper thrust than before.
Her head yanks back she lets out a scream, starts shivering, grabs the sheets with both hands and pulls them near her.

Monster inside of me

I open my left eye
Darkness
I open my right eye
Daylight
"What... the ...hell...?"
"I dont think you should open your left eye, its completely bloodshot and doesnt look too good" She nervously tells me as she rummages the house.
I close both of my eyes and try to get up, which proves far more difficult than it should, but on the other hand I am accustomed to easy things becoming  almost impossible.
"Is the daemon here with us? I cant seem to remember seeing him inside as the Morph jumped in to deffend us from those Banshees.
"Yes" she whispers "He is over there"
I open my right eye to see where she is pointing at, the far corner of the room that is barely lit.
I get on all fours and start making my way towards my daemon. With each step I can distinguish a little more of his silhouette.
He doesnt resemble me at all right now, he is bigger, buffer and has much longer hair.
Wait a minute...
"Daemon?" I ask quietly
"Yes?"
"Have you... Have you..."
"Yes, I have morphed, took me a lot of effort. Dont come closer, I need to rest and recover from my wounds. Oh, and cover that left eye of yours if you dont want to go partially blind"
"I got that" she shouts from somewhere inside the house and shortly after appears with an eye patch.
I take it from her and place it over my left eye.
"Now that this has been taken care of..." I mutter "What happened to you?"
The daemon is breathing deeply and I can feel how difficult it is for him to catch each breath.
"How should I know? I saw you trip just a few inches away from the door and I feared everything would be over, I panicked."
"And you turned into a wolf like antropomorphic creature..."
"Does seem that way" he chuckles "Just give me some time to recover and I might be able to explain what happened or at least what I think happened. Ask her to tell you about our great escape from the room, that sure is a nice story"
"Come over here, lets not disturb him" she tells me, her voice calm
I get to the other side of the room and lay on the floor in order to not waste any of the precious energy that could be left in me.
"My writtings!" I get up fast as lightning and look around the room.
She places her hand on my cheeck  "Hush now, they are near the door, dont worry, I took care of them as we escaped"
I settle down, reliefed that at least my legacy is safe.
"What is the last thing you remember about the room and our escape?"
"Uhhh" I hesitate. I dont really remember anything besides the last night I spent there "Nothing related to the escape itself Im affraid"
"Well... Then i have a lot of telling to do"